It started with the slight trembling of my hands as I tried to open a fresh bottle of Advil. Before I knew it there was the all-too-familiar feeling in my stomach. Almost like butterflies but bordering on nausea. I tried to ignore it. Perhaps that cookie was not a good idea. While drinking water, I recounted what I'd eaten. Just high fiber high protein cereal and a small cookie. Not enough for the sugar to affect me. And it was too early in the day for the lack of food to be causing the trembles. The answer was clear.

Damn you anxiety! You will not take my day. You will not win.

Why? Why is this happening? Everything is going so well. I'm finally lining things up the way they should be. My life is better than its been in years. I'm happy. Why? Why is this happening?

Maybe soft music and my comfy bed will help. I will try this for a while. The medicine makes me sleepy and anxiety would win if it takes my day. It will not take another day.