Lately, I've been feeling a bit anxious. I can't focus on my work.  My organizational skills seem to have taken a vacation. At first, I figured it was nervousness over the wait of the court decision or excitement over the upcoming summer. Both were big events and both were taking up a lot of my thoughts.

Then lately, I noticed something else. As I seem to be getting closer to my dream actually coming true, I seem to be getting overwhelmed. I see all the things I can do to make my dream a reality. However, reaching out and grabbing it is where my problem lies. It always has been. That is why my novel is six years in the works. If I try and don't succeed, then I'm a failure. But if I never actually try, then I could have been great... 

This time it will be different. I have to make myself get past the fears of failure and grab a hold of the dream I've harbored since childhood. It's so close and this summer I will finally have all the pieces of the puzzle to put it together.  No more fear. No more excuses. Just time to put it all together and do it.